I, I don't know why I miss you so much
I don't know why I still feel your touch
You left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

:: Rooster - Deep and Meaningless ::

and raya is coming.
and usually during this period, you reminisce.
of people, of things, of almost anything.

but this raya will be the last.

that voice, that smile, those eyes, that safian.
nothing but a distant memory.

"eh. i havent said this to you... but ya, selamat hari raya. I bet you're sleeping. Kesian safian."
:: Eid 2005 03/11 ::

i'm sorry it took me this long, sofia.
but at least you know how much it meant to me.

maybe it has always been my idiosyncrasy to be speaking in jargon.

and sitting with the puake(s) last night made me think of something.
i need to meet lotsa people.
i miss my swiss fam.
i miss my homies.

i wana go play soccer at bukit batok.
with my homies.
and on the eve of raya, we would play with those sparklers.
make rockets out of them.
fun. fun. fun.

they said they were bad company.
but they took care of me growing up.
so how can they be bad?

this is home.
i miss this place.
when raya kicks in.