Sunday, August 12, 2018
2:45:00 am
Chuck
Or we can admit the harder truth: It was nobody’s fault. It was fate, a tragedy.
We’re holding on to the pain because it’s all we have left. But we don’t have to. We have a choice.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2017
4:53:00 am
Carousel
I think it's normal that everyone wants to have it easy for themselves. Maximum output with the most minimal of efforts.
But at what cost? Because whether you know it or not, there's a cost. It's there.
Then there's the issue of entitlement. The word in it's very essence means right. It's the right to something. The ability to dictate what belongs to you. Yet, there are hands who wants a piece of what belongs to you.
Well then, you can't be entitled to your opinion if you can't respect what was entitled to me.
You're just a piece of what you used to be.
And this tiresome, spins like a carousel.
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Thursday, June 08, 2017
5:03:00 am
Misery
If I bring nothing but misery. If your attitude is "if it's meant to be...."
Then bring yourself far away from me.
You think about you but what about me? Has always been that way now hasn't it? You put so much work on how you're always the victim that you forget I have as much feelings as you do. That I'd sometimes feel hurt to. Then I blink and it all turns back to you.
All is to be. About nothing else. Nothing else but you.
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Monday, March 27, 2017
11:56:00 pm
Only So Much
Same old same oldRepeated shouts that never gets sold
Almost like something rehearsed and told
A broken record, old but gold
Same old same old
And that story unfolds
Like a gun stuck in between your soles
Beating backs as they take a toll
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Saturday, February 11, 2017
12:08:00 am
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Please let me be enough for you.
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Thursday, January 19, 2017
4:14:00 am
The Attempt
Not that it doesn't hurt, it does. A whole lot.
But sometimes, the beauty is in the attempt. And that's all there is to it.
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1:55:00 am
?
It feels different.
Somehow, it feels like I've lost you a little.
And sadly, I don't know why or how.
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Saturday, January 14, 2017
4:08:00 am
Choices
It's the most important thing there is: Love. Finding the right person to spend your life with.
I know i made the right choice.
Then that's where they got you; letting you think you got a choice.
Love finds you, you don't find love.
It's got a little bit to do with destiny, fate, what's written in the stars, and a lot to do with the simple fact that most women are smarter than men are and wily too.
I never had a chance.
But if I need to believe that I had a choice in the matter, i'd say I made a pretty good one.
Why is that?
Because she showed up. And she sure is pretty, both inside and out.
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Tuesday, January 03, 2017
2:20:00 pm
Listen, Just Listen
There are days when a man needs to let out his feelings. Not to be judged, not to be penalised. But just to be listened to.
A woman has 12 such day on a monthly basis. But a man can't have just one.
What happened to talking and sharing about how we feel.
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Monday, December 26, 2016
3:16:00 am
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What have I become?
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Wednesday, December 21, 2016
2:16:00 am
My Reyshahfinah
Last weekend was an eye opener for me. A settling one. One laced with comfort.
My fiancee slept over for the first time ever and I spent 2 whole days with her. Surprisingly, Ibu allowed her to sleep in my room while her own son slept on the couch. Hahahahaha.
I have never thought I could be with someone in this manner, with these amorous feelings. Honestly, I never wanted to love again, to have something to lose.
But this, made me want more. I have a need now. To wake up to someone next to me. To hug someone to sleep. To spend days and nights together with someone. That special someone.
I love the fact that she is able to connect with my family. To be able to talk about anything. That comfort that I have unknowingly seek for years.
Love is no longer about finding the right person. Love is being with a person who accepts you for who you are. All your idiosyncracies, your shortcomings and one who fills the gaps in your life. Love is finding your other half. I struck the lottery; I found my BETTER half.
I'm complete. I found that someone. I found you, Sity Reyshahfinah: My Forever & Always.
I'm ready to be a husband to you. Because not for a second in those 2 days do I not want you there. In fact, I need you to be there. 💚❤️
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