that'll be me.

i just feel like that i'm stuck here. like that song, "stuck in a moment that you can get out of." or something like that. all my friends are either married, going to get married or married with kids. me? i'm here trying to complete a second degree. why second? cos the first one sucked. sucked as hell. i can go nowhere with that piece of paper.

so right now, i'm stuck.

stuck with a job that gives me no life. stuck with a love life or lack thereof. i think i need a drive. some sort of spark to complete the combustion in my life to propel me forward. something to cut loose the grapple hook that's holding me back to all this comfort i have been basking in.

in short, i need to grow up.

i need to learn that when people leave, they never come back. i need to give other people a chance, i need to give life a chance, i need to give MYSELF a chance. and that some chances doesn't come twice. and if they do, it'd be wise to grab it although that is pretty unlikely. so what am i going to do now?

write a resolution (that may not be achieved)

1) to complete my second degree

2) move on from this current job

3) get a gf and get married (although this is debatable in many ways)

4) never party again

5) this should be top priority but i thought of it late but the order doesn't mean anything - to be a good muslim

6) quit smoking

7) increase current savings by $150 which means more money to spend in my dying days

my oh my. a resolution so resolute that i might even baffle myself should i even attempt.