Like I guessed; nothing's changed.

Yeah. Maybe our priorities shifted. Maybe we made plans given the circumstances at those instances. But it's not set in stone right? Maybe not yet. 

I know that I'm in no place to ambush you and say what i said or do what I did. But hey, I have no other choice now have I? You took your time to let me figure your answer and I took mine to come back. 

Now now. The road back. You know how long it took Ted Mosby to finish his story? Well this one's possibly twice as long and probably a whole lot less of comedy. It's just too much tragedy that you can't make a comedy out of. But the road back. The long trecherous road back.

Ok here's the large intricate plan to get to where I want to. I'll start with myself by swallowing my pride. Now that's a bitter pill to swallow. I seeked help from a friend who at this moment may not think of me as a friend anymore. I came up empty. But looking at another perspective, I did get a deserved lashing from her. So i didn't really came up empty. That's like a plus one for me. I should keep contact with friends. Never know when you'll need them.

So the next thing is to look for a certain someone. That requires lowering myself to an ultimate low. Why? Because the people I'm about to deal with are definitely not my greatest fan. Or rather, they'd wish me dead.

Past that stage is of course to atone for the mistakes i made. Big mistakes. Like the deathstar of mistakes. This is way past it's due. I should have done it sooner like 10 years sooner. But I'm still going to. Better late than never. Although this is a big part of everything, it carries no weight on the things i hope will unfold. This, for me, is personal.

Now, the convincing. This will take a lot. Convincing one who hates you to let you be happy with the one thing that destroys them. How is that going to pan out? Only God knows and I hope for aplenty of help from him for this.

If that gets out of the way, all that's left is to persuade. To try again. Sounds easy? No. Not at all. The first few are easy relative to this. They say once bitten twice shy. She'd been bitten and now she's shying away from putting back that faith and trust. Now you see how hard it is? 

Still, that not the end of the spoken hardship. If I do come through with all this, do I have enough to keep this going? To be entertaining enough, to keep you smiling, to keep you happy?

All I'm saying is that Everyone has plans. Everyone wants to do something with their life. But plans can't be rigid. I listed my plan above. Are they a 100%? I don't know. But if I have to change my plans somewhere along the way, I will. Cos eventually, I don't care how I get there as long as I do. But the things I pick up as I get there, those are for keeps, both good and bad.

Last night was good. Honestly, I didn't expect anything from you. It was nice that we did what we did. Rome wasn't build in a day. How long? I can't be sure but they definitely build Rome and it's beautiful.