Sedangku sujud di atas sejadah, cucurilah rahmat ke atasku.

Sedangku berduduk setelah solatku maka degarkanlah rintihan hatiku. 

Sedangku bersedirian, sedarkanlah bahawa ku tidak keseorangan.

Namun, Ya Rab, berikanlah aku ketabahan untuk menempuhi segala cabaran yang kau beri kepadamu.

Berikanlah aku keredhaan yang kau la lagi maha mengetahui dan ini semua adalah demi kebaikanku.

Bantulah hambamu ini Ya Rab.

Things that I wish i dont have to be at this moment. 

I just wana do something that can make this better for you. Let's put us aside for a second and let me do something for you. 

I wana be your hero. The person who takes your pain away. You made me fall in a single swoop. You saved my dying soul, unknowingly. I was about to give up when you came along. 

Now please, let me do this for you. 

Because I love you.

If only heartaches weren't killing you slowly inside.

If only one could accept what is already is. 

Because it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. 

Although life has never prepared me for the events that unfolded these past week. 

I guess you just gotta love till it hurts. Then you'd understand love. Just that when your treshold increases you realise that pain and love is actually the same thing. You begin to be confused. You begin to forget and you can't recognise love even when it slaps itslef in your face. To you, love and pain is interchangeable.

You become emotionless. 

I became indifferent. For a very long time. Then you came around. You jolted that emotion. You distinguished that grey is black and white battling each other. You added the rest of the spectrum to my life. You made me feel alive again.

Then you dropped me in grey and you walked away.