I care so much about. I care so much that i'm mad. I'm overly protective, yes. Only because I fear that something untoward might happen to you. I wish i can be with you every second to make sure you're safe. All i want is for you to be safe. Safe, so that you can come back into my arms at the end of every day.

It breaks me to see you in that state before my very eyes. I just want you to be at home, resting, getting well. I'd rush down as soon as I can to be there with you so that I can nurse you back to health. Why can't you understand that I'm mad cos you choose to work at your current state? I'm not mad cos you're unwell. I'm mad cos you're stubborn. And that stubborness made my heart uneasy for the past couple of hours. Because I care about you. Because I Love You.

I am not made of stone. I'm flesh and blood. I can't just stand by and watch someone I love more than anyone I ever did go through such an ordeal. I can't stop thinking about the "what ifs" when you're in such a condition. Will I be able to save her in time? Will I be able to forgive myself is something bad happens to her? 

Once upon a time, I was there to catch you when you trip, warn you when I sense something bad was about to happen to you and I haven't even loved you yet. What makes you think that changed now that i'm so deeply in love with you? The difference is I was there with you. Now, we are 7 traffic lights away and that ascends my worry for you to overdrive. 

If I seem like such a monster for being mad right now, if I seem less human, then forgive me. If i seem to have loved you less or if I am just not enough for you then let me know. Maybe the problem is me. Maybe you're perfect for me but i'm just not for you. In my eyes, you have always been a swan. I'm just an ugly duckling. Maybe that's why i'm here where I am. 

Be safe, love.